There are many facets of change that I am in the midst of at the moment that I could write about…but right now none of them matter. My daughter will be turning four on the sixth of October, and while I do not write about her much, she is what comes to mind when I hear the word “change”.
I never thought I wanted to be a mother, too many emotions, too much work, just too much …but for some reason, and I still do not know why, this little girl chose me to be her mom…at the ripe old age of 42. Que BIG change. It is the highest of highs and the lowest of lows…emotions are extreme, and just when you think you have got it kind of figured out…guess what…change.
Yes, I am sure you have all heard the saying “they grow so fast”, “kids change everything”, etc. It is true, she can go to bed and wake up looking different the next day, it is fascinating and fun and more of an adventure than climbing Mt. Everest…and more exhausting, do you want to know why? Because even though every day can feel like the movie Groundhog Day…guess what…when it changes, it is monumental. Yes, it is a colossal step to go from needing help putting on pants to no help putting on pants, really, it is. It is like I just gained an hour of time, and she is so proud you would think she accomplished world peace. Plus, now at this age you never know what is going to come out of her mouth, like telling me she did not hear me because her ears are too small. Unexpected is always around the corner, like a zip line made out of a rope and an umbrella…
From the time she was a baby I could not picture in my mind or imagine what she would look like or be like a year down the line. I cannot even fathom what she will be like at the age of five because I am in it now and absorbing all I can now, because as the quote says, you cannot stop the future…and I do not want to miss a thing!
With every alteration this girl goes through, I go through one as well, and I don’t want to rewind or look too far ahead, I am just so excited for each day that all I want to do is “press play”.